Selasa, 24 April 2012

Birthday in Return


A birthday is the day when you get your name written on your friend's bbm status and confuse them in choosing which media to be used in saying Happy Birthday, whether FB, text message  or twitter however that is the day where you feel so special and smile the whole day because people care about you, fake or not. Ironically, sometimes the first person that greets you is the least person you were hoping to greet you, even you barely had conversation with and things that you were hoping to be happened and had already imagined the detail sometimes just don't happen. So never rely your hope on people, don't put high expectation on them, just wait for the unexpected things to be happened.  Because human is naturally egocentric.

Some brief contemplation on the night of my birthday last Saturday on  April 21st, re thinking about what I had done on some other people’s birthday especially the people that really close to me. I’ve always been trying to make them feel special relying on my own thoughts about birthday. On my birthday, I want everyone who knows me realizes that I’m having a birthday on that day and gives just a simple care by saying happy birthday. I want the people that received my effort in surprising them on their birthday do the same thing to me on my birthday (there I said it). And then I only got the first one on my birthday. Despite that I got another happiness on my birthday (meeting GG <3) but still I am hoping for that kind of attention. I have never get egg cracked on my head on my birthday or filthy things thrown at me as the other kind of attention from my friends so that I have an unforgettable moment on my birthday, well, it never happened. No sweet surprise nor blown out candle last Saturday.

 I’m the kind of person that doing something in return (well not exactly always like that) and really concern about what other people did to me then thinking how to return their kindness.  I guess the point of all this is to give to the other people without hoping something in return, but we’re human, we always want something in return. All this time I’m doing good things like helping people or in this topic, surprising people on their birthday based on my principle that they will all get back to me one day in the same form. I guess I’m gonna stick to that principle. But actually, wanting something in return from exactly the same person is rare to be happened or not always going to be happened, it is the kindness itself that will get back to you one day from different person and maybe in different form. It really does happens, when you want something in return, it gets back to you in another form and sometimes you just don’t realize it because you’ve been sticking in wanting the same form.

For final words, i just want to share some of my thoughts, “Why do we expect happiness from other person ? why don’t we create the happiness itself so that other people can feel the happiness as well ?”. It means to me that instead of receiving, start to give, someday they will all get back to you.