A birthday is the day when you get
your name written on your friend's bbm status and confuse them in choosing
which media to be used in saying Happy Birthday, whether FB, text message or twitter however that is the day where you
feel so special and smile the whole day because people care about you, fake or
not. Ironically, sometimes the first person that greets you is the least person
you were hoping to greet you, even you barely had conversation with and things
that you were hoping to be happened and had already imagined the detail
sometimes just don't happen. So never rely your hope on people, don't put high
expectation on them, just wait for the unexpected things to be happened. Because human is naturally egocentric.
Some brief contemplation on the night
of my birthday last Saturday on April
21st, re thinking about what I had done on some other people’s birthday
especially the people that really close to me. I’ve always been trying to make
them feel special relying on my own thoughts about birthday. On my birthday, I
want everyone who knows me realizes that I’m having a birthday on that day and
gives just a simple care by saying happy birthday. I want the people that
received my effort in surprising them on their birthday do the same thing to me
on my birthday (there I said it). And then I only got the first one on my
birthday. Despite that I got another happiness on my birthday (meeting GG <3) but still I am hoping
for that kind of attention. I have never get egg cracked on my head on my birthday or
filthy things thrown at me as the other kind of attention from my friends so
that I have an unforgettable moment on my birthday, well, it never happened. No sweet surprise nor blown out candle last Saturday.
I’m the kind of person that doing something in
return (well not exactly always like that) and really concern about what other people
did to me then thinking how to return their kindness. I guess the point of all this is to give to the other people without hoping something in return, but we’re human, we always want
something in return. All this time I’m doing good things like helping people or
in this topic, surprising people on their birthday based on my principle
that they will all get back to me one day in the same form. I guess I’m
gonna stick to that principle. But actually, wanting something in return from
exactly the same person is rare to be happened or not always going to be happened, it is the kindness itself that will get back to you one day from different person and maybe in different form. It really does happens, when you want something in
return, it gets back to you in another form and sometimes you just don’t realize
it because you’ve been sticking in wanting the same form.
For final words, i just want to share some of my thoughts, “Why do we expect happiness from other person ? why don’t we create the
happiness itself so that other people can feel the happiness as well ?”. It means to me that instead of receiving, start to give, someday they will all get back to you.